[He feels guilty. What right does he have to keep Julian from enjoying himself? Knowing about others would hurt but that's his own fault, his own weakness. He doesn't have the right to deny Julian life and pleasure just because his emotions are out of control.]
When I have a shop set up, you can let me know if you need me to not come home too early.
[It's very good he can simply send this instead of saying it. He's not certain he could keep a pleasant expression on his face in person. Even now his chest hurts, aches in a way that makes it so clear how very far he's fallen for his friend.
But he has always believed in sacrifice, and if he must sacrifice for Julian's sake now then he will.]
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When I have a shop set up, you can let me know if you need me to not come home too early.
[It's very good he can simply send this instead of saying it. He's not certain he could keep a pleasant expression on his face in person. Even now his chest hurts, aches in a way that makes it so clear how very far he's fallen for his friend.
But he has always believed in sacrifice, and if he must sacrifice for Julian's sake now then he will.]